haunted ;
chinese garden can be beautiful at nite.
soft launch for leaders' mess was rather boring o.O so few leaders.. but i enjoyed myself a little i guess. the nite was.. different. not very nice, not very memorable, but i still treasure it.
gp is reeeaaallli boring. itz like.. history lesson. hai. slackin in the cantten wif 'verbal nuggets' goin on is rather nice la. hmm wushu. pathetic again. this time i didnt inform them abt it.. cos i just assumed tt they assume tt there's training. im realli sick n tired of informing them anw. esp when u get crappy replies. so anw there were 4 of us.. but quite fun lah yayy. at least i think my attitude towards wushu is improving a lot more. n we haf a lot a lot of new weapons. so yay. taiji is fun! =)
i think im mood-swingy. i can feel really down in the afternoon.. n smile like crazy at nite. hai.
slackin in the leaders' mess today was nice. ok it was crazy. started playin cluedo.. haha damn siao la. both times i guessed it right lo.. n when i wanna go n guess le they keep pulling me back. hahha damn mean la. always like tt de. but yupp it was fun =) oops i was even screaming away haha.
i think i realli cannot get well le la. im still dying. n i haf no one to blame except myself. so ya.
im so sick of bio. itz getting digusting. realli. n theres bio spa tmr. skills b n c. hai.
anw i think it was mon.. saw how someone daoed me. itz like. realli super obvious la haha. imagine someone walks past u.. suddenly turns his/her head to the left side n starts looking up n down all over the wall. hmm. quite disgusting oso la. but wad to do.. still my fault wad. haiya wdv lo. but still somehow i noe tt i just cant treat this person as a stranger as much as i want to.
i think ive been realli insensitive. itz like.. i dun think n feel as much as i used to. i dun understand myself.. i dun understand wad's going on.. i dunno how to solve probs anymore.. i dunno how to make things become better. realli leh. the silence sometimes realli scares me. hai itz when fatigue or boredom hits.. no one wants to talk.. n we stay silent with a heavy heart. at least tts how i feel. sometimes i realli wanna smile.. but i just cant. i dunno wads going on la. i need a break. i need sleep. i need to sort this out. but one thing is, i noe tt im still happy like this. but i'll make it better. ah i need time to think and feel. i think im getting kinda zombified.
and as a part of my promise to take good care of myself, i'll go sleep now n not study. goodnite.
time;10:39 PM